godslayers and gods

This is a dream, when walking towards that well, made a wish to undo the things that I have done...

He was the reason that I felt the "madness" of being in love.  I thought we were happy.  I thought I was happy.  I even neglected the warnings of my friends.

I dropped a sphere of will, looking back at those things that happened...

And then after I experienced a lot of horrible things, even thought of ending my life...I realized...

...if not for that warning...

that I was being stupid.  Being played at.

I finally realized there was no need to keep on fooling myself.  I needed to move forward.

...visions...noise...

A lot happened until then.  And I guess, I'm a lot stronger now.  He still tried to contact me.  But I paid no heed to what he wanted.

my wish was not granted...but instead...

I still remember that person.  No more ache.  I still abhor the idea that some people have regarding forgiveness tho.

"Forgive those who may have hurt you and thank them for making you a better person."

I said, no thanks.  That is a fool's idea of pretending, being able to prove others that by thanking those who may have hurt them will make them move on, forget even.  I say, I won't thank that person who hurt me.  Because I had done enough foolishness for him.  I can forgive.  But no way that I would thank him.

Somehow, forgiveness is enough for me.  I have moved on.  That is enough.

My world changed back to the way it was.  Rainy...Cold...Fiery...Warm...
...it felt home...and I was thinking...it's good being able to wake up...