Burning Fifth...

We had another fight last month.  It wasn't the worst, but it definitely was bad.  I won't say that I was right, but its one of those fights were neither of us wer Big e willing to give up.  I can't blame him.  There were a lot of factors on both sides.  All I could think of, was that I love him.

And then again today.  After we fought, he still had those mannerisms were he won't message me, saying he had no time, busy, or tired...he still have problems I know...but

these were our previous conversations...

1042pm.08202013

Me: Wala na ba tayong tawagan ng endearment? Hindi ka na rin nag ttext?
 
Beh: Ano na naman yan? Big deal na naman? Ayos na nga dahil naganahan ako mag text.

Me: Kung ganun, kelangan ko pa humingi ng gana mo para mka text ka.  It's not a big deal.  It's a  relationship where two people who love each other give time despite being busy or being not at their best.

Beh: Please lang, ang gulo ng isip ko...sa mga nangyari satin last month sa atin ok.  Saka isa pa di ko gusto may madamay sa problema ko dahil gusto kong maging matured.

Me: All I ask from you is time.  In a relationship, there is trust, understanding, patience, respect, hope and love.  I waited for you, I am trying to understand you.  But you've grown cold.  Sobra na ba na humingi ako ng 5 seconds para maganahan kang magtext sakin?

Online ka naman.  Kahit mag message skin wala talaga.  What do you mean "last month"? Dinadala mo pa rin mga kasalanan ko hanggang ngayon?
(During this, my phone got snatched, so the promise of sending him money was not done.  He thought I was making up stories since he can see my facebook online status)

Beh: Alangan na lagi kung hawakan cp ko para lang mag message.  Kay online ako...ikaw ang bahala ah...tamad nakung mag argue

Me: For me, I've put all those in the past because I love you and I believe you love me too.  I don't see anything wrong in you or anything you need to mature to.  You're already matured.  I don't want you to change, I love you for who you are.

Beh: Alangan mangin lampa ako sa pamilya ko..nga para di mag mature...kung hindi ka makaintindi sa akin, sayo na yan.  I want to be a good person sa family ko, kaya gusto ko mag move on sa dating ako.  Na lagi lang natapakan...

Me: If you see this as an argument, then it's my loss.  What I am trying to point is a small portion of your time.  For Us.  For our relationship.   And to keep our communication going and to keep it strong.

Beh: Tamad nako makipagtalo.  Nasabi ko na lahat.  Kung di ka makaintindi, ako nlang.  Don't worry dahil di nko mag oopen ng fb.  Big deal talaga kung online.

Me: I love you.  I can't change how you decide.  But I still believe on how you love me more than anything else.  I believe in you.

Beh: Saka tamad na ako mag text2x pa saka magpa load. Nagprangka na ako.  tc

Me: good night and sweet dreams.

1133pm 08202013

A day after, he posted this on his fb...

He didn't have time for me, but time for chatting with someone.  :( It hurt.  A lot.

He was happily chatting with someone on "WeChat"