Right now, I am thinking that last night...while I was confiding in him that I was really disappointed how things went in the house where I was living. And while that was happening, he seemed to befriended over the net another guy. He added that this guy loves him already.
I know he loves me, and I really am in love with him. But when he told me about the other guy, I got really scared.
I was crying. Damn I was crying. I wanted to tell him that even though he told me about that guy, what he did really hurt me. I was too jealous. I felt jealous and stupid.
Self pity? Yeah. And now disgusted. Is really normal to feel this? I don't know what to do...
I wanted to tell him that since we're a couple, he shouldn't entertain other guys. But if I do that, he might think that I am being too strict on this relationship.
The next day, after a couple of sms, I thought we were ok. But right now, every time I look at him, it hurts...damn it hurts...funny thing is that I am tear stricken while blogging this...there was his one sms where he told me that since I acted like this, he should've never told me in the first place.
I love him, that it really hurts me up inside. I know I do...
I'm not good looking, nor physically endearing...i don't have any good points...that's I think, what makes me this sick. Sick of inferiority. I love him too much that I didn't dare ask him about that guy again. I guess I'll just let it be...whether he entertains that guys' messages or not.
This is what I was afraid of. That I'll be soaked in knee deep to love, that little things would just start to hurt.
I mean, I really love him, but it hurts... :( ... just now, I was looking at him and he just...
When you're both in love, you're supposed to be happy right?
Then why am i crying? :(
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